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* Saturday, January 08, 2005 *
2004. nice year.. some ups.. a lot of downs.. came aj.. first 3 months.. played all the time.. so nice.. everyday after sch can go out.. it was like.. some dream. =/ haiz.. after that.. everyone went their own ways.. i rmb in term 2.. we had mon gatherings.. by term 3 it all stopped. i guess we had our own things going on. band took over the other part of my life. the jae class got more tgt.. i think i had fun in term 3.. but as always.. it's just the routined sch, online, sleep thing.. then term 4.. everything got so serious.. promos coming. they were still teaching. and there was still much to catch up on. =/ oh wellz.. then promos was over.. played more.. everyday in sch was just waiting to go home/band. oh yar. during promo times.. it was really sad that the band room wasnt open.. but of cos there were reasons like must conc on studies. but sad lar..
during the nov/dec hols. must be the best hols i ever had.. go out like 6 days per week or more. ahaha.. was kept busy with going out and stuff. i guess i like it that way.. get my mind off stuff. something to look forward to.. one good way to get out of the house. band took a huge part.. in a good way.. band practs, band fest, cali trip, more band practs, outings.. nice.. cant describe it all.. but it was really nice to be able to live without worrying that much abt things. that doesnt mean that i wasnt unhappy during the hols.. but it was better.. i'll nvr forget the cali trip.. loved it. ahahaa.. during the hols.. liked my tpt more.. =) very happy. my sound finally was ok (i guess). sometimes still may be airy.. depends.. oh yar.. and the tutor najib. learned a lot of things.. mainly.. it's all in ur head.. yup. that was the hols..
will nvr forget the friendships formed last year.. so cool.. and yeah.. had fun going out with all u pple.. =) hopefully still got more times lar.. haha..
2005. new year.. so far it's been.. abt a week.. not having fun. so much hw not done.. rushing thru them.. haiz.. lessons.. 2 breaks a day. i guess it's hard to adapt to.. i wish i could drop like econs or something. but i dont know.. i dont know anything.. what to do with myself?? and i keep on thinking abt band. not that it's unhealthy but it's an obsession. y do u think the first 2 paras had so much band stuff. haiz.. band is nice.. i only look forward to days with band after sch.. and durng sch.. i'm just waiting for the day to end so band can start.. haiz.. bad but i cant help it. =/ whatever.. let's just see if i crack.
i think i'm already going mad.. so much to do.. sometimes feel very stressed.. esp when things go wrong.. deadlines are due.. not enough sleep.. oversleep.. nvr do hw.. even like in sch.. have to use up the breaks.. and not enough sia.. haiz.. nvm..
last blog in here.. =/ uh.. sorry i nvr blogged much.. but yar.. anws nowadays there's no time to blog.. esp during weekdays. kinda sucky.. haiz.. so yar.. decided that my life.. cant be all recorded down. =/ aha. so nvm lo.. i guess this is it.
during the nov/dec hols. must be the best hols i ever had.. go out like 6 days per week or more. ahaha.. was kept busy with going out and stuff. i guess i like it that way.. get my mind off stuff. something to look forward to.. one good way to get out of the house. band took a huge part.. in a good way.. band practs, band fest, cali trip, more band practs, outings.. nice.. cant describe it all.. but it was really nice to be able to live without worrying that much abt things. that doesnt mean that i wasnt unhappy during the hols.. but it was better.. i'll nvr forget the cali trip.. loved it. ahahaa.. during the hols.. liked my tpt more.. =) very happy. my sound finally was ok (i guess). sometimes still may be airy.. depends.. oh yar.. and the tutor najib. learned a lot of things.. mainly.. it's all in ur head.. yup. that was the hols..
will nvr forget the friendships formed last year.. so cool.. and yeah.. had fun going out with all u pple.. =) hopefully still got more times lar.. haha..
2005. new year.. so far it's been.. abt a week.. not having fun. so much hw not done.. rushing thru them.. haiz.. lessons.. 2 breaks a day. i guess it's hard to adapt to.. i wish i could drop like econs or something. but i dont know.. i dont know anything.. what to do with myself?? and i keep on thinking abt band. not that it's unhealthy but it's an obsession. y do u think the first 2 paras had so much band stuff. haiz.. band is nice.. i only look forward to days with band after sch.. and durng sch.. i'm just waiting for the day to end so band can start.. haiz.. bad but i cant help it. =/ whatever.. let's just see if i crack.
i think i'm already going mad.. so much to do.. sometimes feel very stressed.. esp when things go wrong.. deadlines are due.. not enough sleep.. oversleep.. nvr do hw.. even like in sch.. have to use up the breaks.. and not enough sia.. haiz.. nvm..
last blog in here.. =/ uh.. sorry i nvr blogged much.. but yar.. anws nowadays there's no time to blog.. esp during weekdays. kinda sucky.. haiz.. so yar.. decided that my life.. cant be all recorded down. =/ aha. so nvm lo.. i guess this is it.
* Friday, December 10, 2004 *
heyzz!! i'm still in cali.. using the comp in the hotel.. haha.. it's free access.. limited for like 15 mins.. but no one's queuing up for it. firstly.. really sorry i nvr update for ages.. just that.. busy and everything i guess.. will put it somewhere else hopefully..
so far cali's been great! haha.. homestay and the sch exchange was damn fun.. loved it.. the room we (me and lynn ng) got was really nice.. they have 3 cats, 4 chinchillas, birds and fish. damn nice.. got garden and everything. the people are really really great too.. all v friendly. hahaha.. anws.. our host, renee and kim were v nice.. thou they're like 14 and 11 only. haha.. met the other band members there.. great players.. sight read once and already they played it almost perfect and all. haha.. went to a bio class (there were other classes too but this was the best) and the people were asking qns and all.. i was the only singaporean there.. then they asked what grade i was in, how old i was. they were damn shocked when i said i was 17 cos they only 14 years old. 'she looks like 8!' hahhaahahah. whatever lar.. the rest of the classes were mostly spent sleeping. haha..
today.. went to yosemite.. it's the national park.. very very beautiful.. there was ice on the ground.. hahaha.. so we sorta played with it.. like make ice balls and throw. hahaha.. fun sia.. but sadly it wasnt snowing.. think it snowed before that.. but it's ok.. and yea it's cold.. haha.. but still ok.. had the layers and everything.. so i'm fine..
sometimes wondering how everything is back there.. keep on thinking abt the bach trumpeters! haha.. dont know what to get them yet. dont know if they already had a section outing cos i told them to go ahead. hahaha.. will find a way to give them the stuff. =) and there's lotsa stuff i have to get too.. hahaha.. oh yar.. and they tried to organise a bach outing.. derno if still got a not.. either way i cant go cos will only be back next week. nvm..
still have tons of hw to do.. damn sianz.. wanna play but still have hw.. then keep thinking abt it.. sucks.. come back.. K still coming over.. still have outings.. then chem rem and everything.. haiz..
nvm.. going off soon.. think i sat here for more than 15 mins le.. but lynn told me to take my time lar.. haha.. she's bathing now.. later it's my turn.. 10+pm here. not exactly sure cos i nvr change my hp time at all.. only can agar estimate. and lights out at 1130 lo.. tmr still have to wake up by 630.. =/ but the hotel's really cool. love it.. so big.. nice beds, got tv etc etc..
anws.. liru.. take care yar.. and get well soon! =)
'I'm here and you are there miles away..'
so far cali's been great! haha.. homestay and the sch exchange was damn fun.. loved it.. the room we (me and lynn ng) got was really nice.. they have 3 cats, 4 chinchillas, birds and fish. damn nice.. got garden and everything. the people are really really great too.. all v friendly. hahaha.. anws.. our host, renee and kim were v nice.. thou they're like 14 and 11 only. haha.. met the other band members there.. great players.. sight read once and already they played it almost perfect and all. haha.. went to a bio class (there were other classes too but this was the best) and the people were asking qns and all.. i was the only singaporean there.. then they asked what grade i was in, how old i was. they were damn shocked when i said i was 17 cos they only 14 years old. 'she looks like 8!' hahhaahahah. whatever lar.. the rest of the classes were mostly spent sleeping. haha..
today.. went to yosemite.. it's the national park.. very very beautiful.. there was ice on the ground.. hahaha.. so we sorta played with it.. like make ice balls and throw. hahaha.. fun sia.. but sadly it wasnt snowing.. think it snowed before that.. but it's ok.. and yea it's cold.. haha.. but still ok.. had the layers and everything.. so i'm fine..
sometimes wondering how everything is back there.. keep on thinking abt the bach trumpeters! haha.. dont know what to get them yet. dont know if they already had a section outing cos i told them to go ahead. hahaha.. will find a way to give them the stuff. =) and there's lotsa stuff i have to get too.. hahaha.. oh yar.. and they tried to organise a bach outing.. derno if still got a not.. either way i cant go cos will only be back next week. nvm..
still have tons of hw to do.. damn sianz.. wanna play but still have hw.. then keep thinking abt it.. sucks.. come back.. K still coming over.. still have outings.. then chem rem and everything.. haiz..
nvm.. going off soon.. think i sat here for more than 15 mins le.. but lynn told me to take my time lar.. haha.. she's bathing now.. later it's my turn.. 10+pm here. not exactly sure cos i nvr change my hp time at all.. only can agar estimate. and lights out at 1130 lo.. tmr still have to wake up by 630.. =/ but the hotel's really cool. love it.. so big.. nice beds, got tv etc etc..
anws.. liru.. take care yar.. and get well soon! =)
'I'm here and you are there miles away..'
* Thursday, November 18, 2004 *
8 nov.. mon
spent the day at home.. morn and aft, played comp game.. then towards night time, tried to study for the phys spa the next day. haha.. just agar agar studied only.. didnt have much to do. sianz..
9 nov.. tues
phys spa.. was late so took taxi.. then damn early. haha.. met lynn at the foyer.. then went to lt4.. it was.. soso.. at least more normal than the PE, KE one. haha..
after that was cdp.. started with this talk.. was ok lar.. yeah.. then lunch.. damn early.. it was soso.. they said the first day's food was better. haha..
so we went to the stations.. got a lot.. all games and stuff.. other than losing the first 2 games, the rest we either drawed or won the other class.. haha.. it was fun.. could feel the class spirit.. esp with all that cheering and stuff.. the games were fun.. didnt expect to enjoy myself that much. haha.. no time to elab on all the stations and stuff.. but we were pretty occupied the whole time. one of the games i liked was Crazy Maze. haha.. gave ronald instructions and stuff.. haha.. at least he nvr kena any paint..
at the end there was a finale.. quite long.. they showed us the pics they took.. got a lot for 2104.. haha.. then the cheering comp thing.. the class was super enthu.. haha.. we were the 2nd class to go on stage and cheer.. did the hokkien cheer and 'we are the ones' haha.. nice.. in the end got 3rd!! haha.. given light sticks after that.. they talked this and that.. then the 933 DJ, peifen came to celeb yong kuan's and eli's bdae.. haha.. along with other pple whose bdae was coming up.. damn nice.. btw.. she's chio also~! haha.. the whole atmosphere was great.. so high..
anws.. george is now hailed as the AJ idol! haha.. he did his cheer many many times and the whole audi went wild. haha..
after everything was over, a few of us went to AMK hawker to eat dinner.. stayed there and talked until kinda late then go home.. haha..
had a great day.. been so long since i cheered like that.. went home.. damn tired..
spent the day at home.. morn and aft, played comp game.. then towards night time, tried to study for the phys spa the next day. haha.. just agar agar studied only.. didnt have much to do. sianz..
9 nov.. tues
phys spa.. was late so took taxi.. then damn early. haha.. met lynn at the foyer.. then went to lt4.. it was.. soso.. at least more normal than the PE, KE one. haha..
after that was cdp.. started with this talk.. was ok lar.. yeah.. then lunch.. damn early.. it was soso.. they said the first day's food was better. haha..
so we went to the stations.. got a lot.. all games and stuff.. other than losing the first 2 games, the rest we either drawed or won the other class.. haha.. it was fun.. could feel the class spirit.. esp with all that cheering and stuff.. the games were fun.. didnt expect to enjoy myself that much. haha.. no time to elab on all the stations and stuff.. but we were pretty occupied the whole time. one of the games i liked was Crazy Maze. haha.. gave ronald instructions and stuff.. haha.. at least he nvr kena any paint..
at the end there was a finale.. quite long.. they showed us the pics they took.. got a lot for 2104.. haha.. then the cheering comp thing.. the class was super enthu.. haha.. we were the 2nd class to go on stage and cheer.. did the hokkien cheer and 'we are the ones' haha.. nice.. in the end got 3rd!! haha.. given light sticks after that.. they talked this and that.. then the 933 DJ, peifen came to celeb yong kuan's and eli's bdae.. haha.. along with other pple whose bdae was coming up.. damn nice.. btw.. she's chio also~! haha.. the whole atmosphere was great.. so high..
anws.. george is now hailed as the AJ idol! haha.. he did his cheer many many times and the whole audi went wild. haha..
after everything was over, a few of us went to AMK hawker to eat dinner.. stayed there and talked until kinda late then go home.. haha..
had a great day.. been so long since i cheered like that.. went home.. damn tired..
* Wednesday, November 17, 2004 *
i'm really really sorry for doing this so late.. but these days not much time.. everyday go home super tired.. what to do.. so here goes..
7 nov, Sunday.
pae 2204 class outing to sentosa.. it's been kinda long since we all saw each other.. so it was good.. then cos the prev night i slept late, i woke up late, then was late for meeting them.. =S came at abt 945.. met them at Macs, then we were off!
went to the bus place.. very very similar to last time.. yup.. but we took the bus to Palawan this time.. then go there and walk walk for a while.. tried to play vball but.. pple like me very cmi at vball.. =S haiz.. so yar.. we just played awhile then decided to play something like monkey. also for a while only.. haha..
later we walked across the bridge.. to the little island.. haha.. it was nice.. then we went up some tower which wasnt that high. could see the mainland sentosa and stuff.. haha.. stayed there and enjoyed the scenery, talk etc etc.. nice view.. lol..
towards the aft when everyone was hungry, we decided to head back. haha.. saw dogs swimming and stuff.. dogs just rock. =) took the tram.. haha.. it made a whole round before we got off. and it was.. kinda slow. but nvm lar.. can sit and talk talk.. finally got to the monorail station, then took the monorail to BK. it was also kinda slow.. but can talk lar..
went BK to eat.. same as last time also.. haha.. the whole place seems.. more familiar i guess.. as usual we couldnt finish the fries and stuff. =/ hahaa.. eat until damn full.. then go back.. walked by the underwater world there.. haha.. we were looking at the turtles when suddenly there was some loud sound. to me it sounded like someone hit their head on the wall or something. THUD. i stoned for a while.. too scared to turn back ba. when i did, i think all of us were looking at each other wondering what on earth happed. in the end found out that the ball in lihao's bag burst.. kinda amazing. too hot ba.. but sadly no more ball to play with le..
went to Siloso beach to kayak.. haha.. first time kayaking.. very fast then arms ached.. =S weak. oh.. partnered with keni on the kayak. haha.. so she taught me to kayak.. haha.. all was ok until ZH came and took keni's paddle. haha.. actually i derno who lar.. nvr noticed until the paddle was gone.. =X so left me to paddle.. then after a while kena attacked again.. so we were left paddleless. kinda stranded in the sea. -____- haha.. waited for the current to sweep us to the shore.. then stuck.. keni went out to push.. aiyo.. somehow in the end we got back our paddles so can le. haha.. the others also had their paddles taken.. haha.. but it was fun lar..
hmm.. after we finished kayaking, we stayed in the water.. play play talk talk.. then ZH saw BH on the shore so he went to talk to him and stuff.. but later heaved him up on his shoulder.. haha.. wanted to throw him into the sea mar.. but BH tried to defend himself by scratching clawing ZH's back.. after that it was damn red.. haiyo.. guys.. claw.. haiz.. haha.. then later HW got thrown into the water by ZH.. halfway thru.. he suddenly disappeared.. we were kinda worried.. until someone said they saw him on the shore.. so ok..
after soaking in the sea, we went to play frisbee.. haha.. fun lar.. after that played daidee for a while.. my skills suck lar. haha.. nvm.. arnd that time i checked my hp.. xian jie called.. but i think i called back too late.. =( then in the end she nvr come eat with us..
later we go bathe.. erm yar.. then took bus back to harbourfront.. ate dinner at the harbourfront centre. haha.. the food court there.. no space.. then there was some guy sitting at one table.. we joined the rest of the tables up but still not enough space for everyone.. then sharon said that the guy shld go somewhere or something.. haha.. then he heard and really shifted to another table.. haha.. she felt v paiseh.. poor girl.. so we ordered food and ate.. she didnt eat much of her noodles. haiyo.. still owe her money..
after eating, as usual.. sat and talked abt stuff.. then left the place.. haha.. some went to get ice cream etc.. took pics.. talked.. finally we left the place.. took nel.. then slowly everyone left.. haha.. i was the last one on the train outta the 2204 pple lar. was damn damn tired.. haha..
fun day.. but this time not that many pple got go.. hope next time got more pple go.. yeah..
7 nov, Sunday.
pae 2204 class outing to sentosa.. it's been kinda long since we all saw each other.. so it was good.. then cos the prev night i slept late, i woke up late, then was late for meeting them.. =S came at abt 945.. met them at Macs, then we were off!
went to the bus place.. very very similar to last time.. yup.. but we took the bus to Palawan this time.. then go there and walk walk for a while.. tried to play vball but.. pple like me very cmi at vball.. =S haiz.. so yar.. we just played awhile then decided to play something like monkey. also for a while only.. haha..
later we walked across the bridge.. to the little island.. haha.. it was nice.. then we went up some tower which wasnt that high. could see the mainland sentosa and stuff.. haha.. stayed there and enjoyed the scenery, talk etc etc.. nice view.. lol..
towards the aft when everyone was hungry, we decided to head back. haha.. saw dogs swimming and stuff.. dogs just rock. =) took the tram.. haha.. it made a whole round before we got off. and it was.. kinda slow. but nvm lar.. can sit and talk talk.. finally got to the monorail station, then took the monorail to BK. it was also kinda slow.. but can talk lar..
went BK to eat.. same as last time also.. haha.. the whole place seems.. more familiar i guess.. as usual we couldnt finish the fries and stuff. =/ hahaa.. eat until damn full.. then go back.. walked by the underwater world there.. haha.. we were looking at the turtles when suddenly there was some loud sound. to me it sounded like someone hit their head on the wall or something. THUD. i stoned for a while.. too scared to turn back ba. when i did, i think all of us were looking at each other wondering what on earth happed. in the end found out that the ball in lihao's bag burst.. kinda amazing. too hot ba.. but sadly no more ball to play with le..
went to Siloso beach to kayak.. haha.. first time kayaking.. very fast then arms ached.. =S weak. oh.. partnered with keni on the kayak. haha.. so she taught me to kayak.. haha.. all was ok until ZH came and took keni's paddle. haha.. actually i derno who lar.. nvr noticed until the paddle was gone.. =X so left me to paddle.. then after a while kena attacked again.. so we were left paddleless. kinda stranded in the sea. -____- haha.. waited for the current to sweep us to the shore.. then stuck.. keni went out to push.. aiyo.. somehow in the end we got back our paddles so can le. haha.. the others also had their paddles taken.. haha.. but it was fun lar..
hmm.. after we finished kayaking, we stayed in the water.. play play talk talk.. then ZH saw BH on the shore so he went to talk to him and stuff.. but later heaved him up on his shoulder.. haha.. wanted to throw him into the sea mar.. but BH tried to defend himself by scratching clawing ZH's back.. after that it was damn red.. haiyo.. guys.. claw.. haiz.. haha.. then later HW got thrown into the water by ZH.. halfway thru.. he suddenly disappeared.. we were kinda worried.. until someone said they saw him on the shore.. so ok..
after soaking in the sea, we went to play frisbee.. haha.. fun lar.. after that played daidee for a while.. my skills suck lar. haha.. nvm.. arnd that time i checked my hp.. xian jie called.. but i think i called back too late.. =( then in the end she nvr come eat with us..
later we go bathe.. erm yar.. then took bus back to harbourfront.. ate dinner at the harbourfront centre. haha.. the food court there.. no space.. then there was some guy sitting at one table.. we joined the rest of the tables up but still not enough space for everyone.. then sharon said that the guy shld go somewhere or something.. haha.. then he heard and really shifted to another table.. haha.. she felt v paiseh.. poor girl.. so we ordered food and ate.. she didnt eat much of her noodles. haiyo.. still owe her money..
after eating, as usual.. sat and talked abt stuff.. then left the place.. haha.. some went to get ice cream etc.. took pics.. talked.. finally we left the place.. took nel.. then slowly everyone left.. haha.. i was the last one on the train outta the 2204 pple lar. was damn damn tired.. haha..
fun day.. but this time not that many pple got go.. hope next time got more pple go.. yeah..
* Saturday, November 06, 2004 *
hopefully this is short.. really very sorry that i havent been blogging.. but.. haiz. i derno. partly cos there's been OP and chi and everything. OP was soso.. just glad that it's over. i think our group wins for the thinnest file! haha.. jkjk.. it's quality that counts. hahaha.. then chi was.. *toot* i derno.. scary. left 20 mins for the first 4 sections in paper 2. whatever lar. anyhow do.
i dont know why.. all those are over and i still feel terrible. like something's bothering me. there's a lot of band stuff i need to do. settle all the instruments, clean the mould on more than 2 tpt cases, oil the valves, grease the slides, teach them. the set piece came out.. today just practed it.. quite.. bad. harder than the prev 2 i've played. =/ what can i expect. need to do a list of actions to be taken to improve the section. need to buy more clothes for the trip. get 50 bucks from daddy. he owes me big. quite crowded manz.. my brain is like almost full up. god. so many dates to rmb.. yar.. but it's been fun these few days. =)
erm yar.. tmr shld be fun too.. secret.. haha.. then sun pae 2204 class outing. yup. kinda happy there are such stuff going on to keep me occupied. somemore i need to find pple to play scissors paper stone with me.. the beating one.. derno y i'm addicted to it le. hahahha..
ok great i think i'm going nuts. i need a break. argh. isnt it supposed to be the hols now? haiz.. think that's it for now.. need sleep..
i dont know why.. all those are over and i still feel terrible. like something's bothering me. there's a lot of band stuff i need to do. settle all the instruments, clean the mould on more than 2 tpt cases, oil the valves, grease the slides, teach them. the set piece came out.. today just practed it.. quite.. bad. harder than the prev 2 i've played. =/ what can i expect. need to do a list of actions to be taken to improve the section. need to buy more clothes for the trip. get 50 bucks from daddy. he owes me big. quite crowded manz.. my brain is like almost full up. god. so many dates to rmb.. yar.. but it's been fun these few days. =)
erm yar.. tmr shld be fun too.. secret.. haha.. then sun pae 2204 class outing. yup. kinda happy there are such stuff going on to keep me occupied. somemore i need to find pple to play scissors paper stone with me.. the beating one.. derno y i'm addicted to it le. hahahha..
ok great i think i'm going nuts. i need a break. argh. isnt it supposed to be the hols now? haiz.. think that's it for now.. need sleep..
* Sunday, October 24, 2004 *
almost 2am..
this week was kinda sianz.. normal timetable most of the time.. and band on 2 days only.. thurs stayed in sch until the exco finished their meeting then went out to amk mos to eat with lixin and hanming.. wed went to hougang point to eat with frankie and jia xin.. fri hadta rush home for pw.. =/
then today.. got the OP thing.. quite ok lar.. after that some of us went amk hawker to eat lunch then go town walk walk.. yup.. on the way keni met quite a lot of her friends. we went to some shops and just looked arnd.. reached home before 6pm.
after that was tv, comp, sleep, now comp again. missed dinner cos i slept at 8+. eating now.. =/
tmr have pw again.. have to type stuff.. think tmr morn then do.. BUT have to wake up early.. so gonna sleep le.. nitezz..
this week was kinda sianz.. normal timetable most of the time.. and band on 2 days only.. thurs stayed in sch until the exco finished their meeting then went out to amk mos to eat with lixin and hanming.. wed went to hougang point to eat with frankie and jia xin.. fri hadta rush home for pw.. =/
then today.. got the OP thing.. quite ok lar.. after that some of us went amk hawker to eat lunch then go town walk walk.. yup.. on the way keni met quite a lot of her friends. we went to some shops and just looked arnd.. reached home before 6pm.
after that was tv, comp, sleep, now comp again. missed dinner cos i slept at 8+. eating now.. =/
tmr have pw again.. have to type stuff.. think tmr morn then do.. BUT have to wake up early.. so gonna sleep le.. nitezz..
* Thursday, October 21, 2004 *
not much to blog abt.. haiz.. normal timetable for a few days.. argh.. damn sianz.. *sigh*
got pw to do.. haiz.. and i'm soso tired.. wanna go sleep.. but cant lar.. have to do..
band today was sad. dowan say le.. just that we didnt give it all lar.. and i forgot to bring the book *knock my head* argh..
derno if i shld drop subs.. this that reasons.. =/ haiz.. too tired to type all here lar.. still deciding.. maybe go J2 then say.. =/ but i think if i'm dropping, it'll most prob be econs.. really dont like writing essays.. somemore there's no right or wrong ans.. just vomit all the stuff u have and leave it up to the marker. argh. not like chem and phys.. there's a more definite ans i guess.. thou yeah i know that the sciences are in a way more.. i-derno-what subjects. whatever lar. so maybe it's not as flexible and stuff like econs, but i dont care.. i'm a pure science girl k.. dont think i can take arts sub.. like essay those.. cant really write properly also.. BUT econs is fun cosa the common sense part.. all the mcqs.. will miss them lor.. not the paper 2 and 3 thou. haha.. see how lar.. maybe see next year.. if not happy then drop lor..
another problem.. chi.. haiz.. how.. the days are flying by.. there's band and op and pw and stuff. haiz.. everyday come home then so tired.. how to do anything.. haiz.. wanna sleep.. still have to read.. =S haiz.. what to do..
serious craving for chocos..
and my instrument spoilt today.. the wire for the saliva valve thing broke due to old age ba.. =( now have to wait for the repairman.. then i used jessie's instrument today.. tmr maybe going down to find an unused one.. then have to oil the instruments.. see if tmr got the time and mood to do a not.. if not then maybe fri.. haiz.. my beloved tpt.. damn saddening.. derno when it'll be fixed also.. =/ wanxin said my tone actually okok.. think is when i use more air lar.. and jessie's instrument.. will get one something liddat.. quite nice using except that the first valve keeps getting stuck.. my fault.. my wrong way of pressing the valves. thanks wanxin.. =)
late.. almost 2am.. derno what i wanna do.. didnt do any hw.. haiz.. pw pw pw pw. sianz.
got pw to do.. haiz.. and i'm soso tired.. wanna go sleep.. but cant lar.. have to do..
band today was sad. dowan say le.. just that we didnt give it all lar.. and i forgot to bring the book *knock my head* argh..
derno if i shld drop subs.. this that reasons.. =/ haiz.. too tired to type all here lar.. still deciding.. maybe go J2 then say.. =/ but i think if i'm dropping, it'll most prob be econs.. really dont like writing essays.. somemore there's no right or wrong ans.. just vomit all the stuff u have and leave it up to the marker. argh. not like chem and phys.. there's a more definite ans i guess.. thou yeah i know that the sciences are in a way more.. i-derno-what subjects. whatever lar. so maybe it's not as flexible and stuff like econs, but i dont care.. i'm a pure science girl k.. dont think i can take arts sub.. like essay those.. cant really write properly also.. BUT econs is fun cosa the common sense part.. all the mcqs.. will miss them lor.. not the paper 2 and 3 thou. haha.. see how lar.. maybe see next year.. if not happy then drop lor..
another problem.. chi.. haiz.. how.. the days are flying by.. there's band and op and pw and stuff. haiz.. everyday come home then so tired.. how to do anything.. haiz.. wanna sleep.. still have to read.. =S haiz.. what to do..
serious craving for chocos..
and my instrument spoilt today.. the wire for the saliva valve thing broke due to old age ba.. =( now have to wait for the repairman.. then i used jessie's instrument today.. tmr maybe going down to find an unused one.. then have to oil the instruments.. see if tmr got the time and mood to do a not.. if not then maybe fri.. haiz.. my beloved tpt.. damn saddening.. derno when it'll be fixed also.. =/ wanxin said my tone actually okok.. think is when i use more air lar.. and jessie's instrument.. will get one something liddat.. quite nice using except that the first valve keeps getting stuck.. my fault.. my wrong way of pressing the valves. thanks wanxin.. =)
late.. almost 2am.. derno what i wanna do.. didnt do any hw.. haiz.. pw pw pw pw. sianz.
* Monday, October 11, 2004 *
today.. had phys spa.. which wasnt exactly easy.. basically i think i just crapped a whole lot of nonsense.. haiz.. nvm.. got other chances i think.. after sch i went to hougang mall for a while.. walk walk.. then go hougang point.. then home.. by then i was really really tired.. MSN wasnt working.. so i hit the pillows.. that time was arnd 430..
was having a nice time somewhere faraway from here when mommy woke me up.. tried to go back to sleep but was repeatedly reminded to go out and get Randy from sch.. and buy dinner.. i wouldnt mind it if she waved a 50 buck note in front of my face. what am i saying.. got up soon.. didnt even bother combing my hair again. think i looked like an old hag with a schbag. had $12 to buy food..
rushed to Rosyth and finally found Randy and Jeremy (his friend) then brought them to the coffeeshop to buy dinner.. took some time.. and hadta control them.. wasnt feeling that great cos i guess i wanted to be in dreamland for longer.. argh.. and on the way they kept playing.. well.. it's impt for kids to play i guess.. =/ walked Jeremy up to his house.. then went home.. spent $5 for dinner.. meaning that $7 was for me to keep.. =)
sigh.. but i dont know.. it gets kinda irritating when u're the one doing everything while everyone else gets to slack at home.. and mommy actually wanted me to go hougang point at night to get milk powder for PB (Randy). how many trips do i have to make man.. haiz.. very tired..
came home and online.. have been listening to 2 band songs for the past.. 2 hours or so.. band starts on wed.. and from then we have 3 days to learn one new song.. for the openhouse on sat.. it's either one of the 2 songs i'm listening to.. tpt part kinda high.. better still, one of the songs have a soli and solo part.. so not the type of song to play for openhouse.. think we go there and throw face only.. but we'll try lar.. see how.. haiz.. if both songs CMI then it's back to basic songs.. =/ haiz.. so fast.. derno lar..
ok.. gotta clear my dishes and do something else.. haiz..
was having a nice time somewhere faraway from here when mommy woke me up.. tried to go back to sleep but was repeatedly reminded to go out and get Randy from sch.. and buy dinner.. i wouldnt mind it if she waved a 50 buck note in front of my face. what am i saying.. got up soon.. didnt even bother combing my hair again. think i looked like an old hag with a schbag. had $12 to buy food..
rushed to Rosyth and finally found Randy and Jeremy (his friend) then brought them to the coffeeshop to buy dinner.. took some time.. and hadta control them.. wasnt feeling that great cos i guess i wanted to be in dreamland for longer.. argh.. and on the way they kept playing.. well.. it's impt for kids to play i guess.. =/ walked Jeremy up to his house.. then went home.. spent $5 for dinner.. meaning that $7 was for me to keep.. =)
sigh.. but i dont know.. it gets kinda irritating when u're the one doing everything while everyone else gets to slack at home.. and mommy actually wanted me to go hougang point at night to get milk powder for PB (Randy). how many trips do i have to make man.. haiz.. very tired..
came home and online.. have been listening to 2 band songs for the past.. 2 hours or so.. band starts on wed.. and from then we have 3 days to learn one new song.. for the openhouse on sat.. it's either one of the 2 songs i'm listening to.. tpt part kinda high.. better still, one of the songs have a soli and solo part.. so not the type of song to play for openhouse.. think we go there and throw face only.. but we'll try lar.. see how.. haiz.. if both songs CMI then it's back to basic songs.. =/ haiz.. so fast.. derno lar..
ok.. gotta clear my dishes and do something else.. haiz..
* Sunday, October 10, 2004 *
ok... for the weekend there wasnt much to do.. mainly spent a lot of time with my bed and Piggy. hahaha.. and of cos there was the comp and tv..
totally didnt go out at all on Sat.. mostly slept the day away.. and there were nice shows to watch.. =) finally watched Yi Tian Tu Long Ji. hahhaa.. all the fighting and stuff not bad sia.. anws.. was using the comp at night as usual.. then suddenly there was a small blackout.. cos the fuse in the comp i was using blew.. erm.. i guess the comp consumed too much electricity ba.. so the lights and fans were off and stuff.. it wasnt until the circuit was reconnected that we had electricity again. didnt take that long.. but all the comps couldnt work..
had slight withdrawal ytd cosa it.. hadta go to sleep arnd 12 when i already slept 3-4 hours in the day.. haiz.. nothing to do at home besides online and sleep when there aint any nice shows to watch.. plus no food at home to eat..
then Sun.. morn was spent on PW.. we went to Chun Wei's house do.. finished it quite fast then spent the rest of the time watching tv.. hahhaha.. by early aft then go home le.. slept the day away.. by evening the fuse on the comp was taken out so everything's back to normal.. just that everyone else beat me to that comp.. =/ nvm lar huh.. haha.. got comp to use good liaoz.. =)
haven't studied for tmr's spa.. but wth!! haha.. prob tmr then study..
totally didnt go out at all on Sat.. mostly slept the day away.. and there were nice shows to watch.. =) finally watched Yi Tian Tu Long Ji. hahhaa.. all the fighting and stuff not bad sia.. anws.. was using the comp at night as usual.. then suddenly there was a small blackout.. cos the fuse in the comp i was using blew.. erm.. i guess the comp consumed too much electricity ba.. so the lights and fans were off and stuff.. it wasnt until the circuit was reconnected that we had electricity again. didnt take that long.. but all the comps couldnt work..
had slight withdrawal ytd cosa it.. hadta go to sleep arnd 12 when i already slept 3-4 hours in the day.. haiz.. nothing to do at home besides online and sleep when there aint any nice shows to watch.. plus no food at home to eat..
then Sun.. morn was spent on PW.. we went to Chun Wei's house do.. finished it quite fast then spent the rest of the time watching tv.. hahhaha.. by early aft then go home le.. slept the day away.. by evening the fuse on the comp was taken out so everything's back to normal.. just that everyone else beat me to that comp.. =/ nvm lar huh.. haha.. got comp to use good liaoz.. =)
haven't studied for tmr's spa.. but wth!! haha.. prob tmr then study..
* Friday, October 08, 2004 *
heyz.. today was great.. haha.. enjoyed the whole day.. =)
first there was econs in the morn.. argh.. i ALMOST late for sch.. damn. woke up a bit late, took my time, went to the bus stop later than usual and just missed a bus, realised my wallet was still at home, went up and back again, just missed another bus, and i think the traffic out there was shitty. hahaha.. then so funny.. me, chun wei and mei si sit at the back of the bus.. then we 3 all studying.. haha..
so after we got outta the bus there was abt 4 mins left.. we ran practically all the way to sch.. passed the holding area just as the bell rang. whew.. if not i'll tio CWO.. haha.. so econs came and went.. soon the class was deciding where to go and stuff..
we took MRT to Orchard.. go cine there and eat at BK.. haha.. also during then decided on watching White Chicks later. hmm... after eating, the guys and Shi Qi went to play pool while the rest of us went to Heeren.. go HMV there and listen to songs.. haha.. spent the whole time at the chi songs section.. then we walked arnd.. see shops and stuff.. soon came to the place where got the neoprint machines.. wahahha.. so of cos we took neoprints.. the machine kinda different.. got sofa and stuff.. and the decorating thing didnt have a time limit unless there were other pple taking neoprints. haha.. so we spent a lot of time decorating it..
after all that.. think one of the guys called keni.. said that the show start le.. at that time it was abt 3pm ba.. and the show supposed to start at 315. haha.. anws we were all kinda sad abt missing part of the show.. rushed over to cine again.. haha.. a bit kan cheong lar, but cant help it cos not nice to miss movie.. somemore the guys said they there already laughing. hahaha..
the lift went up to the 5th floor.. opened.. and waddya know.. some of the guys were there.. hahahha.. yuan lai they just bluffing us. ... haha.. so we waited for everyone to gather then went inside.. the show was hilarious. laughed and laughed like mad.. overall nice lar.. really a light-hearted comedy.. plot all that ok.. =) oh yar.. and got so many nice songs during the show.. hahah.. one word: great. haha..
stepping outta the theatre.. mood was kinda high.. hahah.. nice feeling.. went out of cine and gathered for a while.. finally just walked to Wisma there.. and walk arnd.. see shops etc.. then when there was nothing else to do, we just went home.. that was arnd 6+pm ba.. had a wonderful time.. =)
but i didnt go home.. was gonna meet Kaye.. send her off.. yeah.. have been trying to contact her thru her junior's phone the whole day.. but it wasnt until late aft that i got thru.. yeah.. so i took the train all the way to Changi from Orchard.. nice ride.. at Changi.. was kinda worried that my phone would auto off cos left 1 batt.. but i found them in time lar.. before that damn coincidental.. met Ee Teng and Ji Xiang. wahhahaha.. so yeah.. me and Ee Teng sat at the table with Kaye and Donna, her junior. talked abt stuff as usual.. the catching up.. asking how's everything.. haha.. oh yar.. we 3 were seatmates.. with Kaye in the middle.. kinda miss those days.. and still rmb the day Kaye left S'pore for Philipines.. sometime in the dec hols last year.. me and Ee Teng missed her by a few mins.. could only watch the planes fly by..
but today we saw her off.. haha.. then after some discussion on where to go, Donna went back to the Dunman High Hostel, while me, Ee Teng and Ji Xiang went to parkway to eat dinner. hahaha.. i go be lightbulb siaz.. but ee teng said it was ok.. then since havent eaten yet so went to eat with them.. haha.. ate some mini steamboat thing.. until really late.. abt 10pm.. we were the last customers to leave the place.. after that they walked me to the bus stop.. took 76 to old house, 156 home. yeah.. it's been fun talking to them.. wahaha.. then reach home at 11pm..
wish the bus ride in 76 wouldnt end.. bus/mrt rides are always so nice.. the longer and the colder the better.. wanna sit in a bus from one int to the other.. used to do that in sec 4 ba.. cos 73 just rocks.. =) but yeah.. 76 was a long journey.. slept in the bus.. tired mar.. no aft nap.. haha.. but it was really great.. =) overall i really enjoyed the day.. haha.. tmr and sun will be damn free thou.. haha.. see how.. maybe i just dao chu liu lang. =)
first there was econs in the morn.. argh.. i ALMOST late for sch.. damn. woke up a bit late, took my time, went to the bus stop later than usual and just missed a bus, realised my wallet was still at home, went up and back again, just missed another bus, and i think the traffic out there was shitty. hahaha.. then so funny.. me, chun wei and mei si sit at the back of the bus.. then we 3 all studying.. haha..
so after we got outta the bus there was abt 4 mins left.. we ran practically all the way to sch.. passed the holding area just as the bell rang. whew.. if not i'll tio CWO.. haha.. so econs came and went.. soon the class was deciding where to go and stuff..
we took MRT to Orchard.. go cine there and eat at BK.. haha.. also during then decided on watching White Chicks later. hmm... after eating, the guys and Shi Qi went to play pool while the rest of us went to Heeren.. go HMV there and listen to songs.. haha.. spent the whole time at the chi songs section.. then we walked arnd.. see shops and stuff.. soon came to the place where got the neoprint machines.. wahahha.. so of cos we took neoprints.. the machine kinda different.. got sofa and stuff.. and the decorating thing didnt have a time limit unless there were other pple taking neoprints. haha.. so we spent a lot of time decorating it..
after all that.. think one of the guys called keni.. said that the show start le.. at that time it was abt 3pm ba.. and the show supposed to start at 315. haha.. anws we were all kinda sad abt missing part of the show.. rushed over to cine again.. haha.. a bit kan cheong lar, but cant help it cos not nice to miss movie.. somemore the guys said they there already laughing. hahaha..
the lift went up to the 5th floor.. opened.. and waddya know.. some of the guys were there.. hahahha.. yuan lai they just bluffing us. ... haha.. so we waited for everyone to gather then went inside.. the show was hilarious. laughed and laughed like mad.. overall nice lar.. really a light-hearted comedy.. plot all that ok.. =) oh yar.. and got so many nice songs during the show.. hahah.. one word: great. haha..
stepping outta the theatre.. mood was kinda high.. hahah.. nice feeling.. went out of cine and gathered for a while.. finally just walked to Wisma there.. and walk arnd.. see shops etc.. then when there was nothing else to do, we just went home.. that was arnd 6+pm ba.. had a wonderful time.. =)
but i didnt go home.. was gonna meet Kaye.. send her off.. yeah.. have been trying to contact her thru her junior's phone the whole day.. but it wasnt until late aft that i got thru.. yeah.. so i took the train all the way to Changi from Orchard.. nice ride.. at Changi.. was kinda worried that my phone would auto off cos left 1 batt.. but i found them in time lar.. before that damn coincidental.. met Ee Teng and Ji Xiang. wahhahaha.. so yeah.. me and Ee Teng sat at the table with Kaye and Donna, her junior. talked abt stuff as usual.. the catching up.. asking how's everything.. haha.. oh yar.. we 3 were seatmates.. with Kaye in the middle.. kinda miss those days.. and still rmb the day Kaye left S'pore for Philipines.. sometime in the dec hols last year.. me and Ee Teng missed her by a few mins.. could only watch the planes fly by..
but today we saw her off.. haha.. then after some discussion on where to go, Donna went back to the Dunman High Hostel, while me, Ee Teng and Ji Xiang went to parkway to eat dinner. hahaha.. i go be lightbulb siaz.. but ee teng said it was ok.. then since havent eaten yet so went to eat with them.. haha.. ate some mini steamboat thing.. until really late.. abt 10pm.. we were the last customers to leave the place.. after that they walked me to the bus stop.. took 76 to old house, 156 home. yeah.. it's been fun talking to them.. wahaha.. then reach home at 11pm..
wish the bus ride in 76 wouldnt end.. bus/mrt rides are always so nice.. the longer and the colder the better.. wanna sit in a bus from one int to the other.. used to do that in sec 4 ba.. cos 73 just rocks.. =) but yeah.. 76 was a long journey.. slept in the bus.. tired mar.. no aft nap.. haha.. but it was really great.. =) overall i really enjoyed the day.. haha.. tmr and sun will be damn free thou.. haha.. see how.. maybe i just dao chu liu lang. =)
* Wednesday, October 06, 2004 *
it's been... awhile. i have no idea. i come online almost every night. =/ haiz whatever.. so far promos have been a killer. and i worry for most of the papers.. GP dont pass, drop one sub. chi dont pass, kena scolding. for the core subs.. have to lower my standards. argh. WTF is their prob manz. promos dont have to be that hard. fricking discouraging.. haiz..
left phys, chem spa, econs paper 1 and 2, phys spa. havent done much for phys but i cant get off the comp. argh. and my mind keeps on digressing.. to the hols..
california trip.. cant wait to get away from here. mabel will be happy since i'm outta the room.. then she'll invite PB to sleep on my bed.. and he'll be hugging Piggy. will miss my bed.. my pillows.. bolster.. Piggy.. people.. and yar the comp.. and my songs in it.. and my phone (i derno if it works there). today talked to mdm foo abt it a bit.. she says got some slight changes.. either we go there from 2-8 dec and miss WASBE or stick to 6-12 but add an extra day.. 13dec.. then that day go Los Angeles.. cant wait..
still got other stuff.. outings.. everything swarming in my mind.. dates.. open house, WASBE, cali trip, class outing, pae class outing.. then K's coming to S'pore again on thurs night.. that's tmr.. think fri meeting her.. maybe class going out.. haiz..
9+ le.. got Charmed to watch.. after that then do phys. damn sianz lar.. =/ 2 more days..
left phys, chem spa, econs paper 1 and 2, phys spa. havent done much for phys but i cant get off the comp. argh. and my mind keeps on digressing.. to the hols..
california trip.. cant wait to get away from here. mabel will be happy since i'm outta the room.. then she'll invite PB to sleep on my bed.. and he'll be hugging Piggy. will miss my bed.. my pillows.. bolster.. Piggy.. people.. and yar the comp.. and my songs in it.. and my phone (i derno if it works there). today talked to mdm foo abt it a bit.. she says got some slight changes.. either we go there from 2-8 dec and miss WASBE or stick to 6-12 but add an extra day.. 13dec.. then that day go Los Angeles.. cant wait..
still got other stuff.. outings.. everything swarming in my mind.. dates.. open house, WASBE, cali trip, class outing, pae class outing.. then K's coming to S'pore again on thurs night.. that's tmr.. think fri meeting her.. maybe class going out.. haiz..
9+ le.. got Charmed to watch.. after that then do phys. damn sianz lar.. =/ 2 more days..
* Thursday, September 30, 2004 *
today it was drizzling the whole day.. would have been better if the drizzle was heavier or something.. pei me on my way home. =/ came early to sch today. as usual. esp after i got so sianz of coming late all the time and having to run into sch to make it before the bell rings. could've came earlier thou. have been missing the 655 bus everyday. =/
lessons/lects as usual. so sianz. yeah.. but overall the day passed quite fast. soon it was end of sch. stayed back for quite some time. mainly just sat arnd and listened. then finally everyone gathered.. got cake and stuff.. they played with cake and water etc.. then finish liaoz so i went home while some stayed back to study. yeah.
for those who asked.. i'll be fine i guess. =/ ahaha.
lessons/lects as usual. so sianz. yeah.. but overall the day passed quite fast. soon it was end of sch. stayed back for quite some time. mainly just sat arnd and listened. then finally everyone gathered.. got cake and stuff.. they played with cake and water etc.. then finish liaoz so i went home while some stayed back to study. yeah.
for those who asked.. i'll be fine i guess. =/ ahaha.
Simple Plan - Welcome to my Life
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me...
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles
And stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me...
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
nice lyrics. song okok only. =/ love the lyrics.
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me...
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles
And stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me...
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
nice lyrics. song okok only. =/ love the lyrics.
* Saturday, September 25, 2004 *
exams in one week. i shld be studying. just lost all mood for that thanks to some pple who piss me off. GOD. dont feel like talking abt it. 'DON'T BE CRAZY AND TURN ON THE RADIO AND MUSIC FROM THE COMP. ONE DAY I'LL TAKE UR HP AND THROW IT ON THE FLOOR.' both were damn soft and u were going out anws. u could just walk out quickly dammit. u dont have to listen. u nvr did.
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
sch has been damn stressful. seeing everyone mugging.. haiz.. and i'm still struggling with the huge load of hw. repeated last week's thurs to fri thing. meaning sleeping until 1am then waking up to do work. didnt mean to. a nap at 8pm just turned into sleep time.
fri at econs lect i KO-ed after 2s of putting my head on the table. slept thruout the whole thing SO soundly. haiz. and i wonder wth i'm doing to myself. nvm. this week.. have been feeling damn tired for god-knows-what reason. haiz.. nvm.. will have to pia soon.. fri also had pe.. very fun since we were in an all girl group. haha.. what else.. Ms Tan also talked to us abt the promos and stuff.. haiz.. yeah i know i hafta work a lot harder.. been slacking too much.. haiz..
maybe going out today to get something. ahaha. besides that.. think the weekend is gonna be.. this str horizontal line - boring.
random thots: children who are born out of wedlock are called 'bastards'. but it's not the child's fault right? what abt kids created before marriage? it's so not right, esp if after a few years, the parents just say 'no more love'. what if abortion was an option? what would happen to the kids? so many years have gone and still i havent found an ans. =/
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
sch has been damn stressful. seeing everyone mugging.. haiz.. and i'm still struggling with the huge load of hw. repeated last week's thurs to fri thing. meaning sleeping until 1am then waking up to do work. didnt mean to. a nap at 8pm just turned into sleep time.
fri at econs lect i KO-ed after 2s of putting my head on the table. slept thruout the whole thing SO soundly. haiz. and i wonder wth i'm doing to myself. nvm. this week.. have been feeling damn tired for god-knows-what reason. haiz.. nvm.. will have to pia soon.. fri also had pe.. very fun since we were in an all girl group. haha.. what else.. Ms Tan also talked to us abt the promos and stuff.. haiz.. yeah i know i hafta work a lot harder.. been slacking too much.. haiz..
maybe going out today to get something. ahaha. besides that.. think the weekend is gonna be.. this str horizontal line - boring.
random thots: children who are born out of wedlock are called 'bastards'. but it's not the child's fault right? what abt kids created before marriage? it's so not right, esp if after a few years, the parents just say 'no more love'. what if abortion was an option? what would happen to the kids? so many years have gone and still i havent found an ans. =/
* Friday, September 17, 2004 *
Yeah, I know it hurts
Yeah, I know you're scared
Walkin' down the road that leads
To Who-Knows-Where
Don't ya hang your head
Don't ya give up yet
When courage starts
To disappear
I will be right here
When your world
Breaks down
And the voices tell you,
Turn around
When your dreams give out
I will carry you
Carry you
When the stars go blind
And the darkness starts to
Flood your eyes
When you're fallin' behind
I will carry you
Everybody cries
Everybody bleeds
No one ever
Said that life's
An easy thing
That's the beauty of it
When you lose your way
Close your eyes
And go to sleep
Wake up to
Another day
When your world
Breaks down
And the voices tell you,
Turn around
When your dreams give out
I will carry you
Carry you
When the stars go blind
And the darkness starts to
Flood your eyes
When you're fallin' behind
I will carry you
You should know now
That you're not alone
Take my heart and we will find
You will find
Your way home
When your dreams
give out
I will carry you
Carry you
When the stars
Go blind
And the darkness starts to
Flood your eyes
When you've fallen
Behind
I will carry you
Carry you
I will carry you
Carry you
damn nice song.. if i could i'd put all the nice song lyrics up, but unfortunately there isnt much space, plus i'm damn lazy. crap. it's just a nice song. =)
Yeah, I know you're scared
Walkin' down the road that leads
To Who-Knows-Where
Don't ya hang your head
Don't ya give up yet
When courage starts
To disappear
I will be right here
When your world
Breaks down
And the voices tell you,
Turn around
When your dreams give out
I will carry you
Carry you
When the stars go blind
And the darkness starts to
Flood your eyes
When you're fallin' behind
I will carry you
Everybody cries
Everybody bleeds
No one ever
Said that life's
An easy thing
That's the beauty of it
When you lose your way
Close your eyes
And go to sleep
Wake up to
Another day
When your world
Breaks down
And the voices tell you,
Turn around
When your dreams give out
I will carry you
Carry you
When the stars go blind
And the darkness starts to
Flood your eyes
When you're fallin' behind
I will carry you
You should know now
That you're not alone
Take my heart and we will find
You will find
Your way home
When your dreams
give out
I will carry you
Carry you
When the stars
Go blind
And the darkness starts to
Flood your eyes
When you've fallen
Behind
I will carry you
Carry you
I will carry you
Carry you
damn nice song.. if i could i'd put all the nice song lyrics up, but unfortunately there isnt much space, plus i'm damn lazy. crap. it's just a nice song. =)
it's been a long, long time.. *sigh*
updates.. there was a pae 2204 class gathering on wed, 15/9. we went to amk s11 and ate dinner and talked.. so nice.. catch up with one another.. got me, keni, sharon, siew wei, xiao min came for a while, han wei, zong han, chansey, zhen xing, jasper, hong ming, boon heng, then lihao and eunice (*ahem*) came for a while.. yeah.. not bad lar.. got to see pple i havent seen for a while.. =) laughed abt so many things.. esp with zong han and lihao suaning everyone. they also brought up the incident abt them, the broom and the swearing. haha.. last time lessons were so much better.. =/ haiz.. stayed there from 6+ to 9+ then go home le..
thurs.. watched some video on cloning for gp. =/ so against cloning. still dont get why some pple wanna do it on humans. blardy cruel lar. then my whole bio clock went haywired. slept from 6-12am then woke up. so sianz. not many pple online le. from then till 5+am i tried doing hw. at least i'm ok for some subs le. maths still damn lag, buay tahan.
pe was.. whatever. then lunch, me, keni, joanna, ming wei, jun ming and yek wai went to amk central to buy cake and lunch (apple strudel mostly). we didnt even eat there cos hadta rush back to sch. 40mins. on time. so during chi we ate 'lunch'. damn hungry the whole day. imagine not eating dinner and stuffing urself with choco-coated raisins in the middle of the night. gonna come down with sore throat. no band so nvm. one day i'll just buy lotsa medication. stayed back in sch to do the gp aq and phys skill A thing. =/
on the bus home i suddenly rmbed that today Kaye was gonna come to S'pore today.. tried contacting the number she gave me but the calls couldnt get thru and no one replied the sms. reached home and contacted a few pple, before erlin helped me to get to K.. so K called me and i went to Orchard to meet her.. hadta call Keni cos i didnt know how to get to Kino. my sense of direction just sucks + i dont look arnd when i go to places. so yar.. finally found K in Kino.. so good to see her again.. then soon, Vidia came (K's indonesian friend, now in VJ). so we walked arnd for a while, talked abt JC etc.. finally we went to Orchard MRT and sat on the steps to talk.. like how life in NZ was for K.. her friends etc.. and of cos there were the memories of cedar and how she often teased me and stuff. haha.. those were the days.. first day of sch in sec 3, line up according to height and sit.. so she's just a little bit taller than me. haha.. would love to go to her house in Philipines one day.. the farm with lotsa animals.. then we'd talk abt how we'd go to Europe tgt and explore when we're old enough.. *sigh* seems like everything's so different this year.. she in NZ, me here.. =/ but i guess we'll meet up soon again.. see when she comes back. =) didnt sit there for long.. at 10, K and Vidia took cab to the Dunman hostel, while i took train. *sigh*
damn tired now lar. half an hour more to 24 hours since i woke up. so sianz. maybe i go sleep soon lar.. *SigH* eyes hurting like crazy. and i SWEAR my degree went up thanks to staring at the comp screen every night and straining my eyes to open up and glare back. great huh.
updates.. there was a pae 2204 class gathering on wed, 15/9. we went to amk s11 and ate dinner and talked.. so nice.. catch up with one another.. got me, keni, sharon, siew wei, xiao min came for a while, han wei, zong han, chansey, zhen xing, jasper, hong ming, boon heng, then lihao and eunice (*ahem*) came for a while.. yeah.. not bad lar.. got to see pple i havent seen for a while.. =) laughed abt so many things.. esp with zong han and lihao suaning everyone. they also brought up the incident abt them, the broom and the swearing. haha.. last time lessons were so much better.. =/ haiz.. stayed there from 6+ to 9+ then go home le..
thurs.. watched some video on cloning for gp. =/ so against cloning. still dont get why some pple wanna do it on humans. blardy cruel lar. then my whole bio clock went haywired. slept from 6-12am then woke up. so sianz. not many pple online le. from then till 5+am i tried doing hw. at least i'm ok for some subs le. maths still damn lag, buay tahan.
pe was.. whatever. then lunch, me, keni, joanna, ming wei, jun ming and yek wai went to amk central to buy cake and lunch (apple strudel mostly). we didnt even eat there cos hadta rush back to sch. 40mins. on time. so during chi we ate 'lunch'. damn hungry the whole day. imagine not eating dinner and stuffing urself with choco-coated raisins in the middle of the night. gonna come down with sore throat. no band so nvm. one day i'll just buy lotsa medication. stayed back in sch to do the gp aq and phys skill A thing. =/
on the bus home i suddenly rmbed that today Kaye was gonna come to S'pore today.. tried contacting the number she gave me but the calls couldnt get thru and no one replied the sms. reached home and contacted a few pple, before erlin helped me to get to K.. so K called me and i went to Orchard to meet her.. hadta call Keni cos i didnt know how to get to Kino. my sense of direction just sucks + i dont look arnd when i go to places. so yar.. finally found K in Kino.. so good to see her again.. then soon, Vidia came (K's indonesian friend, now in VJ). so we walked arnd for a while, talked abt JC etc.. finally we went to Orchard MRT and sat on the steps to talk.. like how life in NZ was for K.. her friends etc.. and of cos there were the memories of cedar and how she often teased me and stuff. haha.. those were the days.. first day of sch in sec 3, line up according to height and sit.. so she's just a little bit taller than me. haha.. would love to go to her house in Philipines one day.. the farm with lotsa animals.. then we'd talk abt how we'd go to Europe tgt and explore when we're old enough.. *sigh* seems like everything's so different this year.. she in NZ, me here.. =/ but i guess we'll meet up soon again.. see when she comes back. =) didnt sit there for long.. at 10, K and Vidia took cab to the Dunman hostel, while i took train. *sigh*
damn tired now lar. half an hour more to 24 hours since i woke up. so sianz. maybe i go sleep soon lar.. *SigH* eyes hurting like crazy. and i SWEAR my degree went up thanks to staring at the comp screen every night and straining my eyes to open up and glare back. great huh.
* Monday, September 06, 2004 *
ok.. so far things arent looking that great.. =( i dont know..
to you.. i've been very very worried abt u.. feel like breaking down myself too.. but in a way i cant.. visited u today.. good to see that u're coping ok.. seemed ok too.. but somehow i think it's good if u let out what's inside.. keeping things inside sometimes not so good.. u're a really strong girl emotionally.. nvr fails to amaze me.. cos i realise that i'm not that strong after all.. yeah.. wanna be there for u when u need someone.. cant gurantee that i'll always be free.. but i'll try to be.. at least when u need someone to talk to.. must take care of urself k.. if not wo bu neng fang xin..bu zhi dao wei she mo, wo yi zhi xiang ni..
hope to see u again soon.. =)
to you.. i've been very very worried abt u.. feel like breaking down myself too.. but in a way i cant.. visited u today.. good to see that u're coping ok.. seemed ok too.. but somehow i think it's good if u let out what's inside.. keeping things inside sometimes not so good.. u're a really strong girl emotionally.. nvr fails to amaze me.. cos i realise that i'm not that strong after all.. yeah.. wanna be there for u when u need someone.. cant gurantee that i'll always be free.. but i'll try to be.. at least when u need someone to talk to.. must take care of urself k.. if not wo bu neng fang xin..bu zhi dao wei she mo, wo yi zhi xiang ni..
hope to see u again soon.. =)